Another one bites the dust...

One more class down (ETHICS). I'm stoked. It finally feels that I might do this thing. I might just become a counselor! I'm still paranoid that I won't pass something, but hey... I just keep plugging along. Hopefully I'll actually do it! I got accepted to the Salt Lake City Farmer's market! I'ma kinda excited about that. I hope that I can keep myself in stock of merchandise, and that I can keep up with it! What a dilemma for me to have. But hey. The only problem with that is I don't have the $$$ for all the dates ($500) that I have been given. I hope that this can be all worked out. I'm feeling a little overburdened. I have too many projects. I think I need to get some of the bigger projects done, so I don't feel so overwhelmed. Copper to be made into saleable items, leather pieces constructed, pottery jewels, pallets to process, raised beds made for the Ra, finish the flooring at Mom's house... I'm unsure how to get it all done. One step at a time... Bucket had some hard times yesterday night. I asked him to say the family prayer, and he said some words, wandering attention, eyes open... Tara adressed this with him, and asked why he was having a hard time saying the prayer. He broke down sobbing, and told Tara his "deep dark" secret: that he feels sad most of the time, and that he has thoughts about whether or not religion is a bunch of crap. He felt that having such thoughts was just evil and sinful. He wept on Tara's lap for quite some time. During all of this, I was downstairs regrouping, as I was feeling some significant anger toward the kids, and didn't want to lash out at them. I'm VERY concerned, since I began having depressive issues and such at his age. I'm feeling a bit of a loss as to what to do about that part. I want to be there for my kids and help them to be good, solid people. This is one of my biggest worries, having kids with depression. I hope I can help. With the religiosity problem, I think I can help with that, but again, I hope I can help. I'm just concerned that my influence will be detrimental instead of helpful.